Suid Afrika

Why is sorry the hardest word? I can not go back to Suid Afrika as an anti apartheid kids protest?
I am a draft dodger.
I was supposed to put my name in the ballot to be drawn at random for shooting blacks I couldnt.
I sing, I sing really well won several Eistedfod on won ocasion singing in Zulu I am neither a Afrikana nor a black I basically cant go back because the emotional hurt of being bullied in Australia as either a Nazi or Communist of which I am neither is too much continual white bullying of whites has ruined my homeland I can not face the emotional hurt of going home ever its too much such movies like Invictus means a box of tissues needs to be near, I worked in Protocol too.
Well only time will heal the wounds.
Ons Vir Jou SUID-AFRIKA